I can’t say I wasn’t disappointed because I was. I thought she would have visited her only grandchild but alas she didn’t. She probably didn’t want to get caught up in the conflict again between Stewart and I or feared that saying her peace would fall upon my deaf ears… yet again.

Several times she had begged and begged me to leave my Stewart, but I couldn’t. The topic understandably caused a huge rift between the two of us. One I thought would heal once my daughter was born, but if anything; it just caused a wider gap within our already broken relationship of mother and daughter.

I desperately needed my mother right now, but I couldn’t turn back from the path that I had already started walking and living.