I missed our life; I missed our love, our connection, I missed how we were together.

Without hesitation I unblocked his number and demanded we work on our marriage again. I held onto a huge amount of fear as those words uttered out of my mouth without control or regret but there was nothing, I could do to take them back.

I had said them… he heard them. I hadn’t realised it at the time; I wasn’t afraid of losing him; if anything, I just didn’t want my marriage to fail.

We started regularly communicating again although he made it clear he wanted me to cancel the divorce; he insisted I did this immediately, but I couldn’t. I couldn’t part with the little bit of control and ego that I