I glanced at Lucy only to start sobbing like a little child again. I felt so helpless and at the same time I felt she was the reason I was keeping myself from living or should I say existing on a daily basis. She was the reason for me gaining the little strength that I had.

Before, I felt nothing.

I was invisible.

I was a nobody.

Now I was a mother. A mother who was responsible for someone else existing…and I had to start thinking smart and think of a plan to get us both out of this situation.

I didn’t want either of us leaving this property or should I say ‘home’ in a body bag… We needed to leave, and we needed to leave and live in peace somewhere else and start again.